Baby, I'm baffled.

We were close.
So close.

I could say that you were living in my vein.
We were deeply in love.
Even when we were in fight you still turned me on.

We dreamt highly.
Held hands intensely.
Hugged tightly.
Slept soundly.
Kissed passionately.

But somewhere along the way we took a different road.
I never realized.

Until one day your body started to push aside.
You decided to disregard.
Left us behind.
Gave your best to avoid me.
Without telling the reason,

I wish you could just turn back.
And say anything.
Because leaving someone behind without telling the reason is a criminal.
At least, for me.

It felt like you twist the knife right in my stomach.
Left me there.

Bleed.

And didn't even look back and make sure if I was okay.

But now,
Months after that tragedy you come back.

With a brand new feeling.
Ask me how I am doing.
I'm baffled.

What do you mean?

Like, seriously?

After you gave me that permanent scar?

What do you expect me to say?
That I was doing completely fine without you?

Sadly, darling..
No matter how much I tried to reject you.

Your gravity is always irresistible.
I could drown to it by only hearing a word from your mouth.

But that doesn't matter.
The important thing is that after so long time.
I finally get the chance to see your face again.
See that you're doing everything great.
It gives me a relief somehow.

I miss you.

© Nuary Maharani 2016