Yeay! I finally found my old phone and....wait, I never realized I've actually written so many memos on that phone. I'll write it down here because somehow it's a part of my journey, and was my favorite. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I'm not over it yet, it's just.... well, I've already moved on, darling. You know that. Okay, let's see what I wrote back then....
After I met you, I was feeling like I've found in the middle of nowhere. You texted me all day, all night, and all the time you've got... and when you missed hearing my voice, you called me. I still remember that call from 9pm to 4am to talk about nothing and somehow we enjoyed it so much. We told each other's secrets. I was so curious about yours and you kept asking about mine.
It was a month since the day we met. I was very fond of you. It surprised me that I finally left the past far behind me. On March 31, 2012. You said you loved me, you told me how I changed your life in the better way, and then you asked me if I wanted to be your girlfriend. You brought an iPod with you, and I had to choose between Lady Gaga (if I deny) or Katy Perry (if I accept) songs. The butterflies chose KP, well.....you knew why, you changed my life too.
The first week of our relationship I was coming off shy. The second week it got better. You phone-called me everyday and that calls always ended up with sweet words. Do you remember that time when we were on the phone and I was crying because I was so worried of our relationship? I do.
Two months later I got hit by an ultimate boredom of our relationship. I was sick of being phone-called everyday, I was sick of us never being able to hold hands as much as we wanted, I was sick of you that couldn't pick me up for school even just for once, I was sick of met you only on weekends. I supposed to understand that you live in a dormitory so we couldn't have a normal relationship. But I couldn't take it. As my feelings faded, I left you hanging without closure. You tried to reach me for a thousand times but I still didn't pick it up.
That's why we decided to break up.
I just wanna say thank you, there's really no bad memories of you as a person. You were really sweet, gentle, generous, kind, warm-hearted, and you know how to treat me right. Sorry for making it hard for you back then. It's all over, now you're just a part of my journey. Once again, thank you.
© Nuary Maharani 2016
Regards☺,
Nuary M.
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