Been four years now.

I can't believe,
how the past 4 years went so fast,
and how I keep lingering on the thoughts of you since then.

I close my eyes for a moment,
and I could see your face crystal clear.

Even if things have changed,
in my mind you still stand on the same place,

wear the same amicable smile,
while gently caressing my lips.

you set the bar so high, you know?

no one adequate enough

to fill the void inside my soul.

how could you well it up effortlessly?

how could our little trade of mouths
take me back to my solid ground?

how could the way our naked bodies entwined
revitalized my broken bones?

it tortures me how no one could top that.

I open my eyes as I stare at the hotel ceiling,
wonder why 

with all the years that've passed by,

and all the places that I've been to,
it doesn't get any easier.

©NM20

Keruh

Ku kira kau tempat untuk berlabuh,

nyatanya kau yang membuatku tak kunjung sembuh,

bahkan bukan pilihanku untuk berpeluh,

apalagi zona favoritku adalah ketika kau jauh.

Jadi katakan sekali lagi, kau ini membawa damai atau gemuruh?

©NM20

Hard Truth

There is no greater anguish

than trying to keep going 

with a heavy heart like this,

and knowing the fact that 

the only one 

who could ease me

is nowhere to be found.

©NM20

Kamu Semesta-ku

Pernah bersama menapak, 

kemudian bergerak menikmati jarak

Sungguh tak ditakdirkan menyatu, 

tapi bumi dengan adanya kamu adalah semesta favoritku

©NM20

Why won't you let me go?

You

pull me back again,

just when I already see the light 

at the end of the tunnel.

©NM19

Sleeping

I love sleeping so much,
that's when my head stop talking to me.

©NM19

Till We Meet Again

I love you so so much Dad. It's hard to get through this crazy life without you.
I hope to see you again one day and tell you everything about it. Someday we finally get to make up the lost time. Miss you Dad!!

©NM19